Uhh...first of all, I have to apologize that I have not returned for...a year and have no single idea that someone has given me the best christmas present ever, a DD! God, years in DA, and I've never even dared to imagine that someday I will get one. *burst to tears* I can't thank you enough for and I'm sorry for a late thank you, and for everyone who cheers for me, thank you so much and again, thank you so much!

However, I have finally graduated from long years of medical university, and I have decided to leave DA. Not officially ditching DA (as I will still use this for lurking and stalking awesome artists and friends), but I'm moving to pixiv. The reason is, there is quite a struggle over popularity in DA (seeing from high incidence of art stealing whatsoever and high trend to give half-hearted comments. Although even trivial comments make me happy though), and I once fell into despair instead. During the struggle for popularity, I felt weak, not talented and all. No matter how much I practiced, I saw no improvement in my skill. I tried my best to quicken my drawing pace, try all tutorials. In the end, I got nowhere and lost my patience. My inspiration dried up. So I once lost my passion in becoming artist and left drawing behind for such long year.

After a year of absence, I can feel that lingering passion again. This time, I will not be influenced by popularity struggle, or others awesome achievement. This time, I'll be honest with my capability, drawing on my pace (like months for an artwork), enjoying the feeling and time spent in pouring my feeling into a painting. It's okay if I can't produce any artwork every month. It's okay if I can't create such masterpiece. This time, drawing will be a hobby, a media to express and pour my feelings, like a letter.

Thus I shall never upload any more work to DeviantArt. If I stay here, it will entice and drown me once again in hunger of popularity. This time, I'll draw because I need to pour the feeling like a diary; not to show it off to someone else. I'm such a weakling, easily dragged around in the harsh stream of popularity. In this rate, I probably will never get better as an artist, but it's okay. I don't want to lose this excited feeling in painting again. And I wish there will always be lovely songs to mediate these feelings into inspiration.

Thank you for everyone who has given so much support for me! I hope I will be able to give you support as well from now on! Wish you all the best and for your passion in drawings and paintings to continue on.


Last but not least, I love Guilty Crown...it's so addicting, darn. XDDD *worship * When I saw the anime, I felt the similarity of awesome CG effect in the anime and his artwork. And well, I see his name in the credit roll, hahaha~ The songs are inspiring too. I highly recommend it, ohohoh!

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DA Family

My dearest twin sister and personal!27:
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